Oh Sweet Solitude.

Yeah .. Being single is so over.rated.
It makes me feel ugly.
Makes me feel super unattractive.
srsly,thats what I feel like when Im single.
&& its a fact that I dont have any other suitor aside from lexi.kun.
Which I still have zilch plans of taking to heart no matter what he does.
Im so tired, of being on the side spot.
You know, the spot just right beside the spot light.
ive lost my lime light.
It ran out, i dont know, maybe the batteries died on me and and needs really expensive and top of the line brand of batteries to get fixed.
Point is, I cant seem to attract anyone... anymore.
im like dying here.
HALOO!

My family life, is going downhill.
Nothing's going well.
Actually nothing ever did go well, well not too long in my life.
:(
well thats my life, not like I can do much about it.
Ill always be this desperate girl, who's always desperately trying to social climb and win people over with the intention of making life easier for her, but though she plans them so well, her insecurities always gets the best of her and now she feels stupid, weak and useless.
:))
Im so dumb, so ugly, so dying with these pimples on my forehead. Im dying in uglyness.
With this big humungous, gigantatious nose. Im so fucking insecure.
I cant even word it out exactly !
:))
i fucking hate my life.
Hate my mom.
Hate hate hate.
:))
damn. life is getting worst by the minute.
Im starting to doubt if there really is a GOd.
and if any amount of churching would actually be able to convince me that one does exist.!